24th May 2005, 11:20 PM
Mine are new because they were pretty much formed yesterday. It's not like I was waiting for the chance to get rid of him. Nor was I baiting him into leaving yesterday, ABF. If anything, I was being angry and probably a little irrational myself. I knew how he always had to have the final say, but I had hoped that having a little more in the way of stakes would convince him to see reason and back down. By that point it wasn't just about posting reviews, it was having my authority and my legitimacy challenged, and by someone who could have done some damage.
And, to some extent, he was right about one thing, that being me not wanting donations. It's true for the most part that I do not ask for them because I do not require them. Save for one instance, I've never found myself needing help. But imagine how yesterday would have played out if OB1 had been a monetary contributor. He would then feel like he had every right to disregard and overrule me (this is obviously why he brought it up). He was angry at me because I didn't allow him that final step. Because, to a degree, I want that final level of control to myself, though it's not so I can sit back, pet my cat and cackle about being king of the world. It's because in the end, no matter what happens to anyone else, I trust myself. I wanted to avoid a situation where I could not control someone who felt they had free reign to do whatever they pleased because they gave me money. I believe my judgements are sound, and I believe he was being a giant hypocrite yesterday about the entire matter. He accused me of being mad, power-hungry and dictatorial because I removed one of his reviews, but how many times did he threaten to ban and delete people's accounts here for slights against him?
What this boils down to, as far as I can see, was that I was forced to remind him that ultimately, this place is mine, and that I think I do a good job running it. I gave him a position of great power, and I think he felt that allowed him the right to overrule me or whatever.
As to that, I definitely do think he has changed over the years. The person I saw last night is not a person I would ever place in such a position of trust. I never remember him ever being like that to anyone years ago.
And, to some extent, he was right about one thing, that being me not wanting donations. It's true for the most part that I do not ask for them because I do not require them. Save for one instance, I've never found myself needing help. But imagine how yesterday would have played out if OB1 had been a monetary contributor. He would then feel like he had every right to disregard and overrule me (this is obviously why he brought it up). He was angry at me because I didn't allow him that final step. Because, to a degree, I want that final level of control to myself, though it's not so I can sit back, pet my cat and cackle about being king of the world. It's because in the end, no matter what happens to anyone else, I trust myself. I wanted to avoid a situation where I could not control someone who felt they had free reign to do whatever they pleased because they gave me money. I believe my judgements are sound, and I believe he was being a giant hypocrite yesterday about the entire matter. He accused me of being mad, power-hungry and dictatorial because I removed one of his reviews, but how many times did he threaten to ban and delete people's accounts here for slights against him?
What this boils down to, as far as I can see, was that I was forced to remind him that ultimately, this place is mine, and that I think I do a good job running it. I gave him a position of great power, and I think he felt that allowed him the right to overrule me or whatever.
As to that, I definitely do think he has changed over the years. The person I saw last night is not a person I would ever place in such a position of trust. I never remember him ever being like that to anyone years ago.
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