I feel similarly about the first four Civilization games. I love them all, I have been playing the series for nigh unto 30 years, and despite all that, I can only consistently do well on the lower difficulties; even the non-insane higher difficulties find me falling behind early and almost never catching up. I lack the patience to do all the granular, manual work necessary to overcome the stacked odds, and I won't continue once it's obvious that I can't possibly win. And, this all applies extra hard to the few RTS games I've tried. It's hard enough to not get slaughtered when I can take all the time I want to make moves and decisions. When I have to react in real-time, I'm cooked. Watching high-level players play at a high level is a lot more enjoyable when it's not personally at my expense. :)
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WE STAND AT THE DOOR
WE STAND AT THE DOOR