23rd February 2008, 1:33 AM
Okay, I dunno if you're there but I have a new question.
So basically, i'm pretty open. I dont hide nuthin and it's great because it gets shit on an even playing field. Especially in love, if I cant be myself then i'm wasting her time and mine so all my good stuff and all my bad stuff is kinda right there, like there. *there* so, but okay that's not the problem. I'm just giving the backdrop. Here's the problem/question: No, wait I have more info: Okay, so almost a year ago I met this lady and she's scary. I mean, beautiful, intelligent, funny and I keep trying to find something wrong with her, like she rapes puppies or something? anyway she thinks i'm stupid. I mean, she thinks i'm swell, so everything is moving along greatly. She's a giant nerd, i'm a giant nerd, she doesn't care about surround sound I was so pissed but that's besides the point, so like, I feel really messed up.
I wanna just jump in and be like this:
If you'll be my bodyguard
I can be your long lost pal
I can call you Betty
And Betty when you call me
You can call me Al
Call me Al
*sax/trumpets*
yunno?? She's Chevy Chase. I mean she's singing it, i'm the one dancing. It's hard to explain.
But I cant just jump in! I cant.... right? Okay because see, see this is what i'm up against. I effing told the girl I was with before that I would be her man forever, and then she told me she wants to sleep with other ppl, we fought, and now she's in holland where's sleeping with other ppl apparently, so she got what she wanted but i'm left thinking okay so holy shit? Why didnt anyone tell me women can turn on you 180 and suddenly have no forgiveness/heart etc and i'm like, well shitting fuck I had no idea. So... who's to say it wont happen again???
And yunno my story right :P I mean its not like the girl I was with was a 4 month thing or something, after 7 years POOF and then giant bitter/anger there was this, I mean, people died man! It was like this:
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And here's the kicker okay. This girl (her name's Madeleine innit purdy :D) she was in a relationship with a dude that was like depressed and sat on his ass, total waste of skin and exactly like I was but so here's the diff... I work my butt off now, i dont sit around and i'm all... well okay i'm not super responsible or anything but i'm not ass, and being not ass is plus 1200 EXP and I even got the mirror shield, yunno wut im sayin :D but here it is:
Her: Left her boyfriend after a relationship of 4 years because he hit her and she was fed up (he didnt work, was ass, etc). she left thinking he would come back, clean up his act, become an adult, etc. He didn't, he's worse than when she left, and she knows all my struggles and shit and how i became an adult, forced myself to work/get out of depression so like insert rocky theme here ok
me: the girl i was with before went 180 and left me, the girl i'm kinda/sorta with now left her previous dood. Now, see, that? WTF! What if she's just like:
*after years together*
her: hey gess wut :D
me: wut
her: POOF
me: FUCK
I so.... so cannot go through that again. Not ever again, I mean no, just ....just no. My entire world fell apart there is no way I would go through that again. I'd kill everyone. I'm not even kidding, I would get like baseball bats and swords and kill every single person on the planet and listen to Slayer the whole time. Okay yunno the opening scene to Lethal Weapon 3? Dude in a suit of armor and a flame thrower in the middle of LA? *that* *THAT* is what I would become. So no way jose. Not doing it. Maybe it was 2. Was 3 with Joe Pesci? Oh he was in both. Whatever, LOTS of killing, key phrase here.
So..... yeah, what do I do? :P
So basically, i'm pretty open. I dont hide nuthin and it's great because it gets shit on an even playing field. Especially in love, if I cant be myself then i'm wasting her time and mine so all my good stuff and all my bad stuff is kinda right there, like there. *there* so, but okay that's not the problem. I'm just giving the backdrop. Here's the problem/question: No, wait I have more info: Okay, so almost a year ago I met this lady and she's scary. I mean, beautiful, intelligent, funny and I keep trying to find something wrong with her, like she rapes puppies or something? anyway she thinks i'm stupid. I mean, she thinks i'm swell, so everything is moving along greatly. She's a giant nerd, i'm a giant nerd, she doesn't care about surround sound I was so pissed but that's besides the point, so like, I feel really messed up.
I wanna just jump in and be like this:
If you'll be my bodyguard
I can be your long lost pal
I can call you Betty
And Betty when you call me
You can call me Al
Call me Al
*sax/trumpets*
yunno?? She's Chevy Chase. I mean she's singing it, i'm the one dancing. It's hard to explain.
But I cant just jump in! I cant.... right? Okay because see, see this is what i'm up against. I effing told the girl I was with before that I would be her man forever, and then she told me she wants to sleep with other ppl, we fought, and now she's in holland where's sleeping with other ppl apparently, so she got what she wanted but i'm left thinking okay so holy shit? Why didnt anyone tell me women can turn on you 180 and suddenly have no forgiveness/heart etc and i'm like, well shitting fuck I had no idea. So... who's to say it wont happen again???
And yunno my story right :P I mean its not like the girl I was with was a 4 month thing or something, after 7 years POOF and then giant bitter/anger there was this, I mean, people died man! It was like this:
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And here's the kicker okay. This girl (her name's Madeleine innit purdy :D) she was in a relationship with a dude that was like depressed and sat on his ass, total waste of skin and exactly like I was but so here's the diff... I work my butt off now, i dont sit around and i'm all... well okay i'm not super responsible or anything but i'm not ass, and being not ass is plus 1200 EXP and I even got the mirror shield, yunno wut im sayin :D but here it is:
Her: Left her boyfriend after a relationship of 4 years because he hit her and she was fed up (he didnt work, was ass, etc). she left thinking he would come back, clean up his act, become an adult, etc. He didn't, he's worse than when she left, and she knows all my struggles and shit and how i became an adult, forced myself to work/get out of depression so like insert rocky theme here ok
me: the girl i was with before went 180 and left me, the girl i'm kinda/sorta with now left her previous dood. Now, see, that? WTF! What if she's just like:
*after years together*
her: hey gess wut :D
me: wut
her: POOF
me: FUCK
I so.... so cannot go through that again. Not ever again, I mean no, just ....just no. My entire world fell apart there is no way I would go through that again. I'd kill everyone. I'm not even kidding, I would get like baseball bats and swords and kill every single person on the planet and listen to Slayer the whole time. Okay yunno the opening scene to Lethal Weapon 3? Dude in a suit of armor and a flame thrower in the middle of LA? *that* *THAT* is what I would become. So no way jose. Not doing it. Maybe it was 2. Was 3 with Joe Pesci? Oh he was in both. Whatever, LOTS of killing, key phrase here.
So..... yeah, what do I do? :P